The GATE Gamble
So, the thing is that GATE 2018 is knocking on my door and I’m scared about it. I’m not sure if I’ll stand upon the promise that I immaturely made by appearing for GATE 2017. I thought that I can deal with the exam easily if I prepare for a year solely for it. Therefore, after college graduation, I took a year off from everything just to prepare for it. And now that I’ve seen all the phases that come along with the preparation time, I am SCARED!
The exam that I’ve been preparing for almost a year now, is here. And I’m not sure if I’ll be doing that good as I thought. And as it is coming closer, I find myself reluctant to study for it. My study hours have changed from 16 per day (which includes 6 hours coaching class) to 6 per day (after the coaching ended), to just 3 per day.
I know. It looks terrible. But I can’t help it. I’m just not able to dedicate more time to my notes and practice. Maybe because I fell too much pressure. And I have seen other competitors. It’s demoralizing. Though I’m keeping up with it and trying not to be hopeless, but somewhere deep within I feel that I’m not ready yet. I need more practice to stand out.
A few days back I read an answer on Quora, where a guy had answered a question that asked how many times has one appeared for GATE to clear it. This person appeared 4 times to get through an IIT. 4 times! That’s a lot of time and lot of practice. He said he prepared for the exam while doing some regular job. Apparently, he could not take a break from the job. Financial reasons maybe. But he said that he was consistent and kept on trying. Two times he failed miserably. But eventually, he succeeded. I guess by now you know where I’m going with this.
I’m thinking of going the same way. If he did it, then so there is a way that I can achieve my dream. I’ll also prepare for the exam and give it several times till I get through. Which is why I have just now applied for a job in TCS. They will be conducting exam in a few days, in a nearby city. If I get through then I’ll be posted somewhere. Before that, I’ll be going through a training phase (probation period sort-a-thing). After which I shall be appointed for a project somewhere. I know it will be a lot of pressure in the beginning. But I guess if I have to get what I want, then I should go through this too. After all, things have never come to me the easy way, and success also takes a price. I hope I don’t get drenched in work so much that I forget to study. It will be nearly impossible to focus on my studies in the beginning. But I have to get used to it.
I am making a gamble here. I don’t know how things will turn up in the future. But I know where I want to be. Only then will I be able to have a peace of mind.
The exam that I’ve been preparing for almost a year now, is here. And I’m not sure if I’ll be doing that good as I thought. And as it is coming closer, I find myself reluctant to study for it. My study hours have changed from 16 per day (which includes 6 hours coaching class) to 6 per day (after the coaching ended), to just 3 per day.
I know. It looks terrible. But I can’t help it. I’m just not able to dedicate more time to my notes and practice. Maybe because I fell too much pressure. And I have seen other competitors. It’s demoralizing. Though I’m keeping up with it and trying not to be hopeless, but somewhere deep within I feel that I’m not ready yet. I need more practice to stand out.
A few days back I read an answer on Quora, where a guy had answered a question that asked how many times has one appeared for GATE to clear it. This person appeared 4 times to get through an IIT. 4 times! That’s a lot of time and lot of practice. He said he prepared for the exam while doing some regular job. Apparently, he could not take a break from the job. Financial reasons maybe. But he said that he was consistent and kept on trying. Two times he failed miserably. But eventually, he succeeded. I guess by now you know where I’m going with this.
I’m thinking of going the same way. If he did it, then so there is a way that I can achieve my dream. I’ll also prepare for the exam and give it several times till I get through. Which is why I have just now applied for a job in TCS. They will be conducting exam in a few days, in a nearby city. If I get through then I’ll be posted somewhere. Before that, I’ll be going through a training phase (probation period sort-a-thing). After which I shall be appointed for a project somewhere. I know it will be a lot of pressure in the beginning. But I guess if I have to get what I want, then I should go through this too. After all, things have never come to me the easy way, and success also takes a price. I hope I don’t get drenched in work so much that I forget to study. It will be nearly impossible to focus on my studies in the beginning. But I have to get used to it.
I am making a gamble here. I don’t know how things will turn up in the future. But I know where I want to be. Only then will I be able to have a peace of mind.
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