What's Happening?

Problem

I noticed a very strange thing about me.
I have started to loose my calm very easily these days.
I was able to keep myself contained and tolerant before,
but now it doesn't seem to be working. I don't know why
this is happening and how I got here but I don't like this.
I was the one who was able to handle and contain situations but now things are getting out of my hand very frequently. This is a problem.
I have lost my composure. Which is a bad trait of a good personality that I had developed over the years.

Another problem that persists is, my anxiety. It has grown over the years. And I have noticed that the farther away I keep from public interaction the more it gets a strong hold over me. I tend to freak out frequently.

Also, I used to have a very good focus on things and not get easily distracted. It seems I am loosing that too. I now get very distracted even if there is nothing in my vicinity to distract me. I am not able to focus on most of the things. And I've also lost the strength in my determination of things.

I feel good when I'm with people. And I don't when I'm not. It wasn't like this always. I used to be good around people before and I also liked my lone times. It used to make me productive.
 

Potential Thesis about some Attributes


My take/thinking/theory about the lone-time is that it might have been good for me in small amounts and shorter period of time. But it certainly is not if you are lacking a huge amount of social interaction.

How I came on to this conclusion?
Well! At first, I used to enjoy the lone time and it made me efficient in many things that I did. But it never extended for longer durations. It would span mostly a 2 or 3 days. And I think it's good that way because it helps in the process of self reflection and self analysis.
 
But, when it spans for months... It's definitely a huge let down. It takes a great toll. This should be avoided. It may even lead to depression and various mental issues(that I don't know much of).
 

A sigh of Relieve


So there's not much to panic about as I have lead myself on a possible answer of one of my above stated problems. And maybe it's the reason for all my problems. There may be other reasons as well. But to jump onto conclusions so easily is not my cup of tea (oh and by the way, I don't like tea. I like coffee. So if you propose a coffee-day-out with me sometime... Know, that I won't refuse! 😄😇 ).

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