The Diary

I was a Peter Pan I refused to grow up Only to be defeated at the hands of clock I would fly I could always go up Only to live and laugh and play in flock ✶    ✶    ✶

किताब के बीते पन्नो में , बहुत सि ग़लतियाँ की हैं मैंने  उन पन्नो को मैं जोड़ने लागु तो मेरी अदब ख़राब हो जाएगी।  मैं अपनी अदब को ख़राब नहीं देखना चाहता। किताब  ->  ज़िन्दगी  पन्ना   ->  बीता हुआ वक़्त  अदब   ->  छवि

Problem I noticed a very strange thing about me. I have started to loose my calm very easily these days. I was able to keep myself contained and tolerant before, but now it doesn't seem to be working. I don't know why this is happening and how I got here but I don't like this. I was the one who was able to handle and contain situations but now things are getting out of my hand very frequently. This is a problem. I have lost my composure. Which is a bad trait of a good personality that I had developed over the years. Another problem that persists is, my anxiety. It has grown over the years. And I have noticed that the farther away I keep from public interaction the more it gets a strong hold over me. I tend to freak out frequently. Also, I used to have a very good focus on things and not get easily distracted. It seems I am loosing that too. I now get very distracted even if there is nothing in my vicinity to distract me. I am not able to focus on most of the things. And ...